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It has been quite crazy lately with all the nonsense assignments. Still have one more due tomorrow, and then I've got to get my arse to start studying. Lack of focus I have been having. But all I can think of now is how in one months time, I will be in Melb and how soon it is till I'm home. Back to the parents and the dog and the food and the kawans. And this Summer, I reckon I'd be more productive (as compared to the other breaks). Internship for two whole months at KPMG. Hopefully I won't screw it up. I have got to know this Summer During Law lecture, I was already thinking of what to do when I get home. I'm going to get fit. My mother told me yesterday I need to cut down on the bread consumption. Guess that means -the CARBS-. Once again, I have set out all these goals...hopefully I'll get down to achieving them. I'm so out of it this semester. Not sure what the problem is though. =/ Time to buck up Cass.. I'm going to miss you this Summer |
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When will I be man enough to accept rejection? I thought what my mum was saying about me all these years were untrue, but I only came to realize recently that, heck, she was right all along. Obviously wanting to correct this problem, I'm confused as to how. Do I put myself out there, giving people opportunities to reject me in my face? and I learn from that? or what? How do I learn? Or is it more than an issue of rejection?
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OH to the EM to the GEE!!! The Script was awesome orgasm!!!! They were amazing live!!!! Though it was quite a short performance from them, but every single one of their songs were perfection!! Had such a blast singing along to the songs, even though I made some of them up :P Got knocked on the head, had my hair pulled, stepped on some people's toes, toe and neck cramp and screamed my lungs out the entire night! AND danced like an idiot through out. But I had fun :) I love concerts!!! woooooo! Wes car performed as well, and they aren't too bad a band. I don't really know their songs, but they did pretty good live. I am in need of a new digital camera cause this current one sucks big time!!! Roarrrr!!! What an end to a night.. Nothing was said.. |
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 I love how it feels when I'm back home. Especially when I'm back in Sabah with the other side of the family. Love how it's so big and so chaotic and so gossipy and full of drama!! :p I know I'm hardly back in KK, but just being there for like a few weeks with grandma, and all the cousins and aunties and uncles just has a really nice feeling to it. Sometimes, it feels like I'm just getting to know them. As though I'm meeting them for the first time. I guess living in KL for the past all-my-life kind of contributes to that. :P But I'm glad that I have the time to sort of get to know them better now. And I love doing that. Especially loved it when I went mamaking with Aaron, Brian, Nessa and koko Joey in Nirwanas, and having awesome boogytime with Clarissa and Gabriel. Yeah no doubt I was shy, even though I was in the presence of family. But I guess i was just taking it all in. Learning who they are and all that jazz. It excites me!!! ahaha :P I can't wait to see them again cause I really miss them. But I doubt I'd be going to KK this summer break. =/ So, we'll see how things go. Anyway, Happy Anniversary Mr. M !! :) 
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Woke up today to a gloomy Saturday morning. The girls planned to cook their eggs before it expires, so we ta pau-ed hash browns and bread from downstairs to have out own little kopitiam-style breakfast upstairs. :) All went well when the girls boiled the eggs. Reminded me of high school mornings where I was forced to eat soft boiled eggs with soya sauce. I think I got jelak after a while. But it tasted pretty good today! As always, we took our time eating and talking, when suddenly we heard a beep. We all paused and looked at each other. And then we heard another beep. And we all looked up at the fire alarm gadget on the ceiling. Nex thing, that stupid thing started wailing and screaming and the top of it's batteries. All three of us panicked and scrambled from out seats and ran straight at the stove. It was off. No smoke was coming out of it..and we ran around in circles in the kitchen..and remembered. Our heaters! We rushed to our rooms, but it was all off. And that stupid alarm was getting even louder. We ran out off our set, to see no one running out and realized it was just our set's alarm. And we ran back in and ran around again in circles, screaming and each saying different things. Finally, we ran down to Joseph's set..and we heard the alarm stop. Still unsure what set that alarm off though =/ But now, thinking about it, it was quite funny. The whole running around and 'oh-my-godding' all the way. lol :P I love waking up to mornings with smiles. 2.14pm I stopped myself from asking why because I realized that there should not be any reason for telling someone you love them even if it was out of the blue.
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It has been a week since our friend, Shobaan passed away. The news was shocking..and hard to believe. Hard to WANT to believe. I guess what makes it hard is the fact that he was a high school mate, and he stood out in many ways. Though we may not have been close, he was there in my life. And the fact that we've talked..and bumped into each other occasionally after school, matter. I cannot imagine how people who are closest to him feel. I can only pray for them to be strong about this, to slowly accept it and move on. To be honest, death, scares me. Often enough, people tell me not to be afraid..but I guess, it's the thought of never seeing that person again that scares me. To live another day without that person being in the same realm as me, is unthinkable. and Shobaan's passing just made me want to hold on to the people I love even more..made me want to let these people know that I love them..and that they mean so much to me. And to remind me, that they should never be taken for granted. RIP, Shobaan. |
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My mum told me that Teddy was spayed last week. So my baby is no longer a male... =/ I never actually thought about it, but now I'm starting to wonder if they even feel anything. One day your humping the surroundings including the air, and the next day you wake up with a plastic cone around your neck and you find yourself unable to clean/scratch/do whatever it is you do down there and the extras. Are they shocked? Are they scared to find themselves unable to do things they did? What on earth is going through their mind? As for humans, we hear people changing their gender, but they also get hormone tablets for that. Not that I would know, but I'm guessing it's a gradual process. But for animals? in this case, we're talking about my puppy here..won't it be a shock? I'm quite disturbed by it actually.. =/ 12.04AM **AND at this very moment, I just want to drop everything, and get pissed high on anything!! I am not kidding. But I can't. Because I'm just not that way. Frustratingness!!! |
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